If I could explain who Jesus is to me… He is my best friend.
I mean, who else would give up everything for me? who else would lay down their life to give me mine? I feel so thankful to know Him! and as a Christian in a public high school, that is the inspiration behind everything I do: my knowledge of God.
As a girl who battled with anxiety and suffocating fear, I never thought that out of all people I could be free. me? the girl who laid awake at night worrying? the girl who cried by myself because I was afraid to share my heart with anyone? I could be free?
I’ve always been a dreamer and I think the devil knew that. even before I fell in love with Jesus, I had plans to change the world. and all along, God was the One who planted that in me. He created that spark in my heart. and for so long, fear crumbled those dreams. fear crushed my confidence. anxiety set up camp in my mind and started distracting me. I felt unqualified to live for God, yet, I had so many dreams that I wanted to see take place.
Along the way God revealed to me that if I am serious about living for Him, it should not matter what others think. it should not matter what my reputation looks like. it should not matter if I look silly or get made fun of. after all, it’s not about me anymore, it’s about God.
Freedom used to be something I longed for and now it’s part of my testimony.
How sweet to know that because of what God did, I can live my life for Him without hesitation. God created me intentionally and beautifully in His image, and I cannot waste even a single second of my life not living out that truth! and because I’ve experienced His sweet, liberating love, I just have to share it with others.
Through my social media and how I live my life at school, I simply want people to know Him, too. I want people to experience His love, too. because I know I’m not the only one who needs God. everyone is born with an unfulfilled desire to be loved that only God can cure.
And that’s the beautiful thing about God: everything that I’m not, He is.
Not strong enough? He is. not courageous enough? He is. not qualified enough? He is. not talented enough? He is. not special enough? He is.
I recognize that He’s looking for my obedience more than He’s looking for my special talents. and I have seen God change me and prepare me for things. I have watched Him help me overcome fears and press straight through my anxiety to discover this beautiful faith stronger than I ever imagined possible. I had to humbly sit at His feet, receive His grace, learn the truth of God’s word and wake up running with it.
So as I step into my senior year of high school, I want to be a beacon of light. I want to live my life in such a way that reminds people there’s still a God and He is still alive. He still answers prayers. He still forgives people. He still sets captives free.
And I know that because He did it for me.
